I’m guilty. I don’t just mean in the past, but lately. I’ve been guilty of frustration. Guilty of impatience. We do know that patience isn’t waiting right? We’re going to wait regardless when it comes to what only God can release. Patience is actually waiting with the right attitude. We can murmur, complain and pout while we wait, or we can trust, praise and rejoice in the promise that is on the other end of our wait.

I became frustrated, because I couldn’t understand the point. I couldn’t understand why He has revealed some of the things He has, if CLEARLY some of the things aren’t coming to pass any time soon. Sometimes, when hope hurts, you’d just rather not know. Ignorance can be bliss at times. But when He reveals His plan and purpose you have to deal with the burden of conforming to His divine schedule. So I ask questions like… why did you show me if I was just going to remain irritated by the process? Why did I even have to know?

He had a talk with me today to remind me that it isn’t about my conveniences, but His purpose. And He also reminded me that cooperating with Him during the process is the same as cooperating with Him for the plan itself. A sous chef doesn’t get the credit, but certainly has responsibilities and must take orders and execute as the meal is prepared. The longer a sous chef works beside an executive chef, the more they learn, and the better they become.

So AGAIN, my heart has been restored. I needed it restored AGAIN. And I told Him tonight, that I commit to his purpose AND His schedule (ARRRGGGGHHHH it’s KILLING ME…. I guess that’s the point). I desire to execute my role in His plan with complete synchronicity, virtue and excellence. I am walking this out WITH Him. It’s His plan., so it will be accomplished in HIS time. Inhale… Exhale… Inhale….. Exhale…

Psalm 119:133 is my anthem right now. No iniquity!!! No iniquity tied to doubt, fear, frustration, impatience, bitterness, intolerance, pride….. NO INIQUITY!!! (If you read the scripture you’ll get what I’m saying)

We should feel honored to have a role at all!

Perspective is key….Selah


     There are SO many benefits to obedience. The benefits are LOADED & LAYERED. When we have been taken advantage of, used and misused, we are OBLIGATED to PRAY for the “offenders”. The energy it takes to be offended, rehearse and talk about the incident(s) is energy misdirected towards being distracted! Our energy must be directed at our pursuit of God!!! 

     Who is worth ANOTHER hold up in your life?

     We have to pray for the offenders DESPITE their efforts to hold us DOWN while God is pushing us UP, leave us out while God is ushering us in, smother us while God is exposing us, discredit us while God is rolling back the reproach. People are being REQUIRED to choose sides and “it ain’t personal”. This is about the Lord’s side (doing what is loving, just, righteous, encouraging, admirable and virtuous) vs. the enemy’s side (operating in darkness, envy, jealousy, defeat, betrayal, comparison and deceit). And while people are “choosing”, they are forfeiting and excusing themselves from associations and opportunities. They are excusing themselves from deliverance and breakthrough (which are bi-products of being ON THE LORD’S SIDE).

     As He’s pulling you closer to Him, “friends” and family will let you down. You will be lied on, cursed at, and spoken about cruelly. You will be “thrown under the bus” and forsaken. People who have called you to minister to them privately will ignore you publicly. People who have known and trusted the God in you enough to call you to preach, will dismiss you because your latest assignment is tearing up their flesh! They walked with you until it got uncomfortable and required their accountability and loyalty. The best you can say to them and about them is, “AMEN, God BLESS you and be thankful, you JUST got uncomfortable. This message, mandate and assignment has BEEN killing ME!!!!” ….. 

     The “I” must DIE, so keep doing what the LORD has commissioned you to do no matter WHO falls off!!! 
He’s minimizing the “thank you’s” you’ll be giving in the end. At the END of THIS thing, He ALONE will get the GLORY. Even those you thank, who stuck with you, will readily re-direct the credit to Him, because they’re ON HIS SIDE. He’s ELIMINATING from the picture, those who would be too prideful to do so!!! 

     I’m not the only one who is running for their very LIFE!!! 

     I’m not the only one who’s nails are bending at the quick from the force of holding on!!!

     I’m not the only one being wheeled to LABOR & DELIVERY!!!

     I’m not the only one at a threshold of pain & stretching that is unprecedented!!! Everyone isn’t allowed into the Delivery Room! Some that you are yearning for, would contaminate the sterile environment. He isn’t ALLOWING them to stay close for that reason!!! Keep your eyes LOCKED on the GREAT PHYSICIAN. Only hear the voices of His assigned mid-wives. 

     Every external threat is on the OUTSIDE- ALL you have to do is KEEP PUSHING!!!

     Just think, if you weren’t resolved to be obedient and KEEP PRAYING, the BENEFITS could be delayed another season. I thank God for CLARITY. His promises are locked and loaded. We just have to be READY!!! Psalm 68:19