Thirsty for Mercy….

Jonah 1 & 2

“I will pay that which I have vowed…”

We’ve all done it-  we have experienced the glory of God and His loving presence has rested on us, and we’ve responded…”reveal your will for my life”…”make me, mold me”…”have your way with me”….”Lord just send me and I’ll go”. How.many.times.have.we.said.these.things?

And we mean it until what He requires of us rests on the outside of our comfort zone. We want to serve God, but we don’t want to seem “odd”, be embarrassed or go against the grain in comparison to the other christians we know.

Too often, our unspoken sentiment is- “I want to serve God, but I don’t want it to require that I do stuff I don’t like to do.” HOW HUMAN OF US!!! 🙂

I see this story now very differently than I used to. Before, I perceived the belly of the big fish as punishment for Jonah’s disobedience. Now I perceive it as a manifestation of God’s love and grace. Not just for Jonah, but the people attached to His assignment.

He could’ve died…

After being thrown overboard, he could have drowned. He could have been eaten by a shark. He could have had his lungs poked and punctured by a swordfish. He could have gotten tired of fighting the currents and simply given in to the sea.

BUT….

God PREPARED a big fish to keep him safe and give him time to come to himself.

The fish didn’t digest him, but held him in its dark, dank, putrid stomach long enough for Jonah to cry out.

Gosh, he sounded like David.

Gosh, he sounded like me.

He remembered…there was a time he vowed his life- and in his repentant state and right mind, he determined again to pay the vow he made.

He’s the God of  “another chance”…..

He repented, God commanded, the fish spit, and land was there. So often we think we are the ones waiting for our “next”. How interesting is the notion that everything is lined up where and how it is supposed to be and is waiting for us, our thoughts, our actions…. our obedience.. to… LINE UP with THE agenda that will save the very lives we are guarding?

I’m thirsting to be more like Him. Let that be our prayer today sisters- that He will show us every way we work against His plan for us.

#shereadstruth

Come Quickly God- I’m Thirsty for Relief ~ Kelsi Marie

I have a wonderful band of sisters that I study with. We are called the She Reads Truth community. Talk about hearts that ooze with love! Each member was invited to write and share a devotional for the Friday scriptures during Lent. I love my sisters and I am so excited that we are sharing our hearts with one another.

My Devotional for the 38th Psalm:

O-wa

M-ma

G-eeeee

Have you ever felt so low, so regretful, so remorseful, so scorned, so NOT supported, so abandoned and so depressed that even death seemed like a kinder fate?

It can get that bad. It may not for everyone, but I’m grateful for a psalm that can reach that low and comfort anyone who can relate. What I appreciate here is that David acknowledges he is not innocent. Yet he makes it clear that his “foolishness” has landed him in a spot where he is way over his head. He is hurting. God’s anger is hurting him, the weight of his iniquities is hurting him, the abandonment he feels is hurting him, the circumstances, the sickness, the mourning, the suffering….

He’s Hurting.

He’s DESPERATE.

Only God can quench his thirst for relief. Relief from his burning insides, the fiery darts of his family and friends and the scorching plots for his demise. Sometimes we sink so low that the only words we want to hear are God’s. I’ve been in a place where I didn’t want to hear another “positive thought”, well intentioned opinion, or “let’s get you cheered up” speech. It wouldn’t surprise me if I even told someone from my emotional abyss “if God didn’t tell you, then don’t say it, PLEASE”. I have been so desperate for HIM that I only wanted to hear what HE had to say. Sisters, sometimes we are so fragile that we thirst for the word that CANNOT fail. The thought of another [financial, relational, mental, emotional or physiological] “failure” seems like too much to bear. In those moments we whisper, “I just need God”.

From that drought, you begin to feel the “only God can help me” appreciation for His strength. ALL honor and glory rightfully belong to a God more than powerful enough to overturn and reverse the despair that makes one feel more dead than alive. He can turn it !

He can turn ANYTHING.

We won’t move until He comes, because only His way do we want to go.

Come God- COME QUICKLY!

Parched is an understatement- a feeling of being dried up and nearly blowing away into emotional oblivion is more like it.

But God…

He can change ANYTHING.

Come God, COME QUICKLY.

I’m waiting- thirsty for you.

Sisters, today, let’s pause and pray that God “comes quickly” for any and every one of us that is in despair and is waiting in an emotional wildnerness for God to CHANGE EVERYTHING.

She Reads Truth – Psalm 130

I have a wonderful band of sisters that I study with. We are called the She Reads Truth community. Talk about hearts that ooze with love! Each member was invited to write and share a devotional for the Friday scriptures during Lent. I love my sisters and I am so excited that we are sharing our hearts with one another. 

 

My Devotional for Psalm 130~ A Song of Ascents

 

Reading this psalm left me with one word- one word that anchored me to each of the versions I read. One word that I couldn’t get away from… “parched”.

 

As I surfed the verses, so many needs and experiences came to mind. There is so much that I am longing for in this season, yet so much that He has provided. While there is so much that I desire, I must also acknowledge all that He has spared me from.

 

Sisters, aren’t we ever so thirsty for Him? From the depths that we cry to Him, we thirst for Living Water that will soothe and hydrate our souls. From the wells of shortcomings and missed marks, we thirst for Him- His mercy, extended through longsuffering and patience with us. It’s a rope we never stop tugging. What would we do without it? If He counted, marked or held all of our wrongs against any of us, who could stand under the weight and shame of it all? None of us…so, we thirst.

 

And then, from the wells of thankfulness- we thirst more, because of His love that He provides us, which is so unconditional and refreshing. It’s a love that we have not earned and is so life saving and jaw dropping- that we want more and more. We thirst.

 

I need His love more than I need the night to end, even when it is long and painful. Yet there is a double blessing in that riding on the wings of morning, are new mercies, new opportunities and new light. And with you, I watch for it and wait for it, “more than watchmen for the morning, I say, more than watchmen for the morning.”

 

Even with our variation of needs, desires and gratitude, the common thread is the same… we thirst.

 

Sisters, let’s make sure to hope fanatically in the Lord today- our Redeemer LIVES and He is nigh.  I’m SO thirsty!!!

 

#shereadstruth

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Heart Strings…

This is a picture of heart strings. Can you see how fragile they are? These heart strings can break after a deep emotional trauma, causing the heart to lose form and no longer pump blood effectively. Yes, one can literally die from a broken heart. I am posting this because I really want people to consider the impact they have on others AND the necessity of emotional restoration. Do you know anyone that died too soon? Do you know anyone with a “bad heart”? Do you know anyone (including yourself) that gives the APPEARANCE of soaring in the spirit, but privately, are really just one disappointment away from a breakdown?
So, you want to know why I do what I do- why my messages are so often about emotional healing? One cannot live the abundant life Christ died for them to live without taking the mask off and having their heart RESTORED. You laugh ON TOP OF THE PAIN- preach ON TOP OF THE PAIN- get into another relationship ON TOP OF THE PAIN- act bitterly ON TOP OF THE PAIN, act like nothing is wrong ON TOP OF THE PAIN, joke around ON TOP OF THE PAIN, but the pain is real. And you are LYING. Dis-ease eventually manifests in disease. Arthritis, asthma, cancer, congestive heart failure, diabetes…..(need I go on) are all rooted in a TRAUMA that becomes the DOOR the enemy used to access the temple. There are some you will NEVER fool, simply because the God on the inside of us can SEE the pain- and furthermore, SEE that you haven’t yielded to the healing PROCESS. For the love of God…get healed!!! 

If you want help or know someone who does, have them contact me. I will help. Prayer, exposure, root work….you WILL have to deal with it. THIS IS NOT A GAME- THIS IS YOUR LIFE!!!

Emotional Healing Coach
info@kelsimarie.com
www.clarityisdivine.com

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