I’m guilty. I don’t just mean in the past, but lately. I’ve been guilty of frustration. Guilty of impatience. We do know that patience isn’t waiting right? We’re going to wait regardless when it comes to what only God can release. Patience is actually waiting with the right attitude. We can murmur, complain and pout while we wait, or we can trust, praise and rejoice in the promise that is on the other end of our wait.

I became frustrated, because I couldn’t understand the point. I couldn’t understand why He has revealed some of the things He has, if CLEARLY some of the things aren’t coming to pass any time soon. Sometimes, when hope hurts, you’d just rather not know. Ignorance can be bliss at times. But when He reveals His plan and purpose you have to deal with the burden of conforming to His divine schedule. So I ask questions like… why did you show me if I was just going to remain irritated by the process? Why did I even have to know?

He had a talk with me today to remind me that it isn’t about my conveniences, but His purpose. And He also reminded me that cooperating with Him during the process is the same as cooperating with Him for the plan itself. A sous chef doesn’t get the credit, but certainly has responsibilities and must take orders and execute as the meal is prepared. The longer a sous chef works beside an executive chef, the more they learn, and the better they become.

So AGAIN, my heart has been restored. I needed it restored AGAIN. And I told Him tonight, that I commit to his purpose AND His schedule (ARRRGGGGHHHH it’s KILLING ME…. I guess that’s the point). I desire to execute my role in His plan with complete synchronicity, virtue and excellence. I am walking this out WITH Him. It’s His plan., so it will be accomplished in HIS time. Inhale… Exhale… Inhale….. Exhale…

Psalm 119:133 is my anthem right now. No iniquity!!! No iniquity tied to doubt, fear, frustration, impatience, bitterness, intolerance, pride….. NO INIQUITY!!! (If you read the scripture you’ll get what I’m saying)

We should feel honored to have a role at all!

Perspective is key….Selah

Jesus IS the middle….

The truth for a Christian, whether you’re ready or not, whether you like it or not, is that Jesus IS the ministry of reconciliation. He is SUPPOSED to be the CENTER of EVERY relationship you have, whether it’s marital, friendship, parental, sibling or otherwise. He will allow EVERY relationship you have to suffer and fall apart, just so that He can reconcile it and be the center of it. No, not to be mean, but because only through Him….only by Him being at the CENTER of the relationship, can you experience the FULLNESS of the blessing the relationship is intended to be. He HAS to be the center!!! I’ve been ruminating this revelation for about three months.
Here’s an example:
Isaac was a promise for Abraham. Sometimes we desire a promise so much and wait so long that when it manifests, we idolize the promise. We serve it and have a greater affection for it than we do God. Sound familiar? God desired to be the CENTER of Abraham and Isaac’s relationship. He has to be the middle, the reconciler. And when Abraham lifted the knife, he proved his faithfulness to God. He chose God over his son, therefore God gave his son back to him (provided a ram in the bush). At that point God became the mediator, the CENTER of the relationship, His rightful place. With order established, every future blessing God intended for Abraham to have through Isaac, could be given. He HAS to be the CENTER!!! Make Him the center so that He doesn’t have to SHOW you He’s the one keeping it together!!! (One of the many things I’ve learned from Bonhoeffer ❤️)

It’s Been Paid For!!!

I bought a new set of cordless phones a few months ago. When it comes to gadgets, I’m the type to research, read, google, research again and pray to make sure I’m getting the best gadget for my specific needs- and the coolest. I read all of the awesome features, including “link to cell” and “headset jack” and couldn’t wait to get these wonderful pieces of goodness home.

Now, I immediately began to use the headphone jack, well because it was right there in plain view on the side of the phone and is truly necessary for the radio broadcast- nothing hard about that. But there was [what appeared to be] the more complicated matter of figuring out how to link the cordless sets to my cell phone and then MAKE IT WORK. How many times have I had to apologize for “breaking up” or regretfully explain to someone that I need to call them “right back” from my land line? Even though I paid extra for a phone that has this function, I never wanted to sit still long enough to figure it out. And you already know that digging up the manual was going to be out of the question- even if it cut my time and effort in half.

Two days ago, I finally figured it out. The linking was easy–figuring out how to dial out from my cordless through my cell number was a different story, but after much trial and error, I figured it out!!! And for two days I’ve walked around my home looking like Janet Jackson in her “Control” video (well, not really). Belt clip (attached to phone) and headset in full effect- I am totally hands free with a perfect signal! SCORE!!! I took a moment yesterday to bask in the convenience, and I realized that I lost a few precious months of enjoying this “hook-up”. How many dropped calls and frustrating moments could have been avoided had I just taken the time, sat still long enough to familiarize myself with the instructions? Surely, the sacrifice of time spent learning would have paled in comparison to the time I spent retrieving lost phone calls and repeating complete sentences. There was a good lesson to learn about “paying if forward”- expending the effort and learning the rules in the beginning so that you can enjoy the end game.

By now you know I took this a bit further. How many of us aren’t reaping the total benefits of salvation? How many of us are pining for desires that are actually lined up and labeled for us? How many of us will lose days, weeks, months, years and decades until we are inconvenienced enough to sit still and seek instruction? Often times, things can be much easier than they are, but for one flaw (laziness, procrastination, disorganization, etc.) or another, we don’t sit still enough to seek the answer that will change our circumstances and set the pace for everything to run much more smoothly.

Jesus paid the price. Your GOOD life has been paid for…REAP ALL OF THE BENEFITS!!! It’s a FULL FEATURED life!




     There are SO many benefits to obedience. The benefits are LOADED & LAYERED. When we have been taken advantage of, used and misused, we are OBLIGATED to PRAY for the “offenders”. The energy it takes to be offended, rehearse and talk about the incident(s) is energy misdirected towards being distracted! Our energy must be directed at our pursuit of God!!! 

     Who is worth ANOTHER hold up in your life?

     We have to pray for the offenders DESPITE their efforts to hold us DOWN while God is pushing us UP, leave us out while God is ushering us in, smother us while God is exposing us, discredit us while God is rolling back the reproach. People are being REQUIRED to choose sides and “it ain’t personal”. This is about the Lord’s side (doing what is loving, just, righteous, encouraging, admirable and virtuous) vs. the enemy’s side (operating in darkness, envy, jealousy, defeat, betrayal, comparison and deceit). And while people are “choosing”, they are forfeiting and excusing themselves from associations and opportunities. They are excusing themselves from deliverance and breakthrough (which are bi-products of being ON THE LORD’S SIDE).

     As He’s pulling you closer to Him, “friends” and family will let you down. You will be lied on, cursed at, and spoken about cruelly. You will be “thrown under the bus” and forsaken. People who have called you to minister to them privately will ignore you publicly. People who have known and trusted the God in you enough to call you to preach, will dismiss you because your latest assignment is tearing up their flesh! They walked with you until it got uncomfortable and required their accountability and loyalty. The best you can say to them and about them is, “AMEN, God BLESS you and be thankful, you JUST got uncomfortable. This message, mandate and assignment has BEEN killing ME!!!!” ….. 

     The “I” must DIE, so keep doing what the LORD has commissioned you to do no matter WHO falls off!!! 
He’s minimizing the “thank you’s” you’ll be giving in the end. At the END of THIS thing, He ALONE will get the GLORY. Even those you thank, who stuck with you, will readily re-direct the credit to Him, because they’re ON HIS SIDE. He’s ELIMINATING from the picture, those who would be too prideful to do so!!! 

     I’m not the only one who is running for their very LIFE!!! 

     I’m not the only one who’s nails are bending at the quick from the force of holding on!!!

     I’m not the only one being wheeled to LABOR & DELIVERY!!!

     I’m not the only one at a threshold of pain & stretching that is unprecedented!!! Everyone isn’t allowed into the Delivery Room! Some that you are yearning for, would contaminate the sterile environment. He isn’t ALLOWING them to stay close for that reason!!! Keep your eyes LOCKED on the GREAT PHYSICIAN. Only hear the voices of His assigned mid-wives. 

     Every external threat is on the OUTSIDE- ALL you have to do is KEEP PUSHING!!!

     Just think, if you weren’t resolved to be obedient and KEEP PRAYING, the BENEFITS could be delayed another season. I thank God for CLARITY. His promises are locked and loaded. We just have to be READY!!! Psalm 68:19






Nothing hurts like a broken heart. Whether it stems from death, divorce, a break-up, or a severed friendship, the ACHE is consistent in all relationships. Betrayal is painful. Whether the onset of a terminal illness leaves you feeling betrayed by your own body, the infidelity of a lover leaves you feeling stripped of security, or a friend who betrays your confidence leaves you feeling that a safe place doesn’t exist, the sting of betrayal can become an ache that feels unbearable.


Have you ever noticed how in the days of roadmaps, there would be tiny towns that weren’t on the map? You’d stumble upon them with no intent to stay; you’re just passing through. How many lives and vacations would be ruined or destinations unfulfilled, if you got stuck in the tiny town you were only meant to drive through?


But for many, that is exactly what happens when an emotional injury takes place. Instead of moving through it, there’s a “putt-putt-stop” as if the incentive that once fueled you through life has been depleted. We stop, think, wallow, rehearse memories and in the worst-case scenario, completely forget about the fact that we were in motion before the incident. Some experiences hit so hard that the emotional swing leaves you disoriented. Not only do you forget that you were going somewhere, suddenly you’re trying to remember where you are.


If you know how it feels to lose time, it’s likely that you’ve decided it’s too expensive to misplace. Since we cannot control life and it’s betrayals, there must be a way to guard yourself and leave them void of the ability to derail you. Yes, we must stay focused on the One who won’t hurt or disappoint us. The One who walks through the valley of the shadow of death WITH us, comforts us and protects us from utter ruin! (Psalm 23:4) We should have confidence in and expectations of Him alone.  


The sting of a damaged heart changes you- it is the sharp-ended point that cuts a fork into your path. Will you dive or will you thrive?  Will you taint or will you faint? Have you ever heard that depression is rage turned inward? There are those who cry and those who bully. There are those who crumble and those who oppress. There are those who fold and those who burst. How has your pain challenged you?   More importantly, how has your pain changed you? Those who inflict pain are in much pain themselves. Those who don’t know how to love cannot recognize it [in their own lives] in order to give it.


We will experience different types of offenses. How do we love, YET steer clear of the madness? Being hurt or offended is a part of life. Not learning the lessons, not paying attention to familiar signs, repeatedly being vulnerable to the same type of offense is madness. Expecting better from someone who hasn’t increased his or her capacity to do better is suspect. Leaving yourself vulnerable to that type of person is insane. People come with different bodies and faces, but their ability to cause damage is built into the structure of their behavior. When we’ve paid attention to the modus operandi of the previous offender, and heeded the indicators, it becomes painfully clear when that behavior is in front of us again.


Hopefully, you’ll use this article as an opportunity to take inventory. Having been hurt before, knowing the sting of betrayal, ask yourself if anyone is currently derailed or stagnant because of a negative impact you’ve made. Have you honestly been a good steward of the relationships God has entrusted to your care? Are there any situations that need your attention? I don’t know about you, but I don’t want to be the reason someone loses any time getting to his or her destination (Luke 17:1&2). It’s the adult child, oooops… I meant the immature Christian that points their finger and yells “it isn’t my fault!!!” but the fruit-bearing disciple cares nothing about fault in an effort to see another person restored. Agape reveals to us that it isn’t about being right, but being RIGHT. God’s love teaches us to esteem others higher than we do ourselves (Philippians 2:3). Check your map, where are you? The truth may be PAINFULLY CLEAR.